In the last few weeks I have been writing on Facebook about my family and about solar storms and ascension symptoms and astrology and my appointment with an energetic healer.
When I write openly about this, there is a dragon sitting on my shoulder whose name is “fear of rejection”. It is shouting in my ear to keep silent. People will think that you are weird, “zweverig” (Dutch word for not having your feet on the ground).
I hear it, but I have decided not to let it stop me.
This is me. This is my story. My soul is on a journey and I follow it, even when it means that I am going through the ‘dark night of the soul’ more times than I can count.
I have all these uncomfortable physical, emotional and mental symptoms, especially when the sun is sending a flare to the earth, and the earth is responding to it with a change in its magnetic fields and so on.
To be honest: I don’t know much about solar storms and Schuman resonance and all the rest.
More importantly: I never know what to make of people who write about these solar storms as if it is part of a ‘ascension process’ or ‘crystalline energy’ ‘3D to 5D’ or even Christ awakening.
What I do know is that on days with a lot of solar activities, I am in bed, because I can’t stay awake, and my intestines and other parts of my body are hurting, and my body starts detoxing like crazy and I have all these strange emotional and mental processes going on.
What I do know is that I am going through a transformation. I have no idea where this is going, or why I am going through it, and what it is exactly. I just know that this transformation is real.
And because I have this intuitive knowledge, I now also have the courage to write about it.
Feel free to reject me. If you are resisting what I am writing, it means that there is energy and this tells me that you are connected to what I am writing, or else you would simply be indifferent.
I will share here what I experience, because it helps me when I speak my truth. Who knows, one day we can have a conversation around this topic, maybe even in real life. I am looking forward to it already.
PS yesterday I had this healing by Jan Osinga and afterwards I spent the whole day in bed, but now I do feel so much better. I can’t explain what he did to me, and I don’t need to. I am simply grateful for his support.